YIKES!!!

So today I am just going to ramble (complain) about a few things. I guess I am a sorry sod of a person who likes to feel sorry for themselves all the time. I am currently in the process of planning a wedding, and making guest lists. We just mailed out the invites to our Engagement party, and I am so depressed because I realize that Norm and I have very few friends. Most of our friends are in our wedding party. I have been looking at the "our friends" section of our guest lists, and it's a sorry sight. We have lots of acquaintances, but not people we would really consider friends. I guess it's our fault. We don't hang out with people like we used to anymore. We need to find friends. Where is a good place to find friends?
I am going to be bridesmaid-less for the last 5 months of my engagement. I have four bridesmaids. Two currently live out of state one in Washington, and one in Iowa, and the other two live here in California. In December my very closest and dearest friend, and one of the California residents, is moving to Washington. That makes two in Washington, one in Iowa, and one here in California. The one left here in California is crazy busy all the time. She is a bridesmaid in a million other weddings including mine. The reason she is in a million other weddings is she is a REALLY nice girl. Soon she will be my sister in law. But as I said earlier, she is busy all the time.
On a positive note, we have found our wedding and reception site, and we have an interview with a promising D.J. From what I hear, he is a good deal for a D.J. He charges a flat rate, he comes to the rehearsal, he leaves when the party is over, and he doesn't charge overtime or extra for any of this. AND he has a bubble machine. Now, I know what your thinking. Don't mess with the interview... Book this guy. HE HAS A BUBBLE MACHINE. But we must contain our excitement for the bubble machine, and follow proper protocol.
My goodness I like to hear myself talk. I need to find some inner peace. There is just way too much noise going on in my head. I need to find a thinking spot. One like Winnie The Pooh has. Just a place to go reflect and be quiet. Where is such a place in California? I miss beauty in my life. I need to get back in touch with the Peace of God. It's been gone from my life for far too long. I miss Jesus. I miss the Holy Spirit. I miss God. I miss communion with the saints. I think this is what my soul is crying out for. I think that when I look at my barren "friends" list, and when I think about my bridesmaids all living thousands of miles away from me, I realize that I have lost that communion. How do I get it back again. Where do I find it. I am lost. My soul has been drowning in a sea of busyness, to do lists are tying down my spirit, and errands are sucking my joy. I forgot how much truth is discovered in journaling. I used to be an avid journaler, but I stopped. It seems I lost myself when I stopped searching my soul through the act of journaling. I need to go be alone now.